Hey, its been awhile!

last night the WNC came over.  It was just like old times.  It was really good to see everyone again and to know that they havent changed too much.  We had a ton of food and prety much just caught up on everyones lives.  Then Kendra came over with her date!  HEs adorable and perfect for her!!!  I couldnt be more happy for her!  She better not let this one go.  Oh- yeah and thankyou so much to my wonderful friends that cleaned my house for me.  I was dreading going into the basement cuz i didnt wanna face the mess and there wasnt one!  MUAH!!!!  Friday night I hung out with Jessica Root a girl i grew up with and we reunited this past sumer but then she left me and went away to college in Chicogo.  It was good to catch up on things.  So i pretty much hate school and cant wait for thanksgiving break!  I hope i get to see old friends over the holiday break! call me!

K-LEE

Court- i admire how passionate you are about things.  Whether its a rediculous word like stellar or sticking up for people you care about.  I know if i was crying you would cry with me, and if i was hysterically laughing, you would laugh with me.  You are so determied to do things the right way and i love that about you.  You are such a strong person.  I will never forget our first fight.  Walking outside after the whole karra brad drama screaming at eachother, and it turned out we thouhgt we were fighting about 2 completely diffferent issues, and we just starting laughing.  You are the true meaning of a real friend.  my advice to you would be don't let people take advantage of your kindness.  Know when to say no.  I love you Court love Kay

Tina B.-Tin one of your best qualities is that your close to impossible to get sick of.  People love to be around you.  I had a blast with you at my cottege.  Shuffel board, getting stranded in the middle of the lake, laying on the hamic, laying out, and watching the fireworks on the boat.  Tin i love how you say exactly what your thinking.  Theres no guessing with you, and thats good.  I remember a bunch of us were together and we were on the phone with someone yelling at them and you say "Give me the phone! You guys are being way to nice, I'll tell her the truth."  And then it ended up working out.  I wish i had the balls to do that.  My onliy advice to you Tin would be when your in a rediculous argument and you know your worng, just give in and let them win! Hhaha love you hun Love Kay

Kone-  Where do i start?  I have too many memories to talk about.  Spring break was a blast.  I'm so glad you came.  The only reason i regret it is my mom always is saying to me "comon Kaylie have a little discipline.  Kendra wouldnt do that.  She even gets up early ever day on Spring Break to go running.  (who does that?)  I just tell her well Kendras above average, so she doesnt count.  Kone i have cried with you more than anyone i know.  We have brought eachother through more problems than i can bare to think about.  Im so glad you were there when i found out about Nick.  I would have been a mess if you werent there in the car to talk to me when they were all minature golfing.  I remember you saying "Kaylie i have not yet met someone good enough for you"  Well Kone guess what i think the same thing about you.  I havent met a guy that deserves you yet.  Wev almost always been on the same page when it comes to guys.  I don't know where i would be without you.  You truly amaze meKendra.  I mean who gets blessed with looks, brains, athletics, and character.  I love you Kone you mean the world to me. love you Kay

K guys sorry but i have to go i will pry finish them tonight so sorry if i didnt get to you yet

Wow...so much is changing, i feel like i am stuck in someone elses body and living some stragers life.  Where did my snece of normality go? Where are my 11 best friends? What happened to those people i trusted my life with?  I hate that thier at a different part of life than me.  I want to experience all this unfamilirarity with them, not alone.  There are certain things i will never forget, like, dance partys in the parking lot after a friday night football game christmas party, belt in the foot, tarry hall, stac and mels b-day party, hangin out after cheer comps.How open are you late to? twirp at IHOP sharing dirty stories, mels cottege, sloppy seconds, the endless game of one compliment and one neg. WNC pictures, pool parties at Kones.  taking Ems phone numerous sleepovers at my house, hey iv never tried that, see you Kone, sick makeup and outfits pary crashin!

Bear- I wanna cry thinking about everything weve been through, I still remember the first night we realy got to know eachoter.  It was a Kendras and we were both really annoyed of someone that night and we talked about it.  Then we went to Michigan Adventures and i got to know you and Leah on the way home.  How can you forget the crazy road trips we took together. Wow did we ever go anywhere without getting lost, or running out of oil in the middle of the highway.  I was there when you had 10 guys and i was there when you narrowed it down to one, and i was there when you lost him.  Then i was slefish and screwed up.  I am so grateful that you forgave me.  I love your problems.  I know that sounds crazy but i love talking to you about them.  Where would i be without you Bear.  I love you My piece od advice to you, hopefully it wont be the last.  Don't settle for less than you deserve.  And you deserve a lot.  Don't go for someone simply because they like you.  Its not true feelings.  Its simply fleshly desires.  I know you will make good decisions your lst 2 years. i love you... Kay

Lee-You simply amaze me.  I just see you, and it makes me happy. What a quality your mere presence could make someones day.  Leah how can someone be so close to perfect, yrt be so modest?  (despite your cockiness) It seems lik eyou always know the right thing to do.  You are one of the most trustworthy people i know.  I will never foget going up to karras cottege with you and we got so rediculousy lost to the point that we flaged a random guy down for directions.  (who does that?)  Then remember karra getting furious at us when we got there?  Like we hadnt been through enough already.  I loved being twins with you that day hahah remember that we were like idneticle down to the same earings.  wow lee my advice to you is   keep doin what your doin dont let anyone pull you down whether its peer pressure, guys, or someone saying yout less than you are. i love you lee love kay

Bones  If i ever need someone to be carefree with and just have a good time, i know i can call you!  I cant believe how mature and comfortable you are around people.  I remember when you were a freshman and  i was a junior .  People would always say are you sure shes a freshman?  Remeber the beggining of last summer we spent every day of the 1st 3 weeks together?  Painting at my moms office, laying out, making neclaces. i never got sick of you.  Remeber truth or darein the hotub at jollies?  Hey sorry for breaking your ankle. Wait didnt you step off a curb wrong and twist it?  hahah Bones you keep your head up your an inspiring person and a lot of people look up to you.  Dont you dare believe anything differently.  I love you Bones keep it real. love kay

Melbee-  You have such an amazing heart.  You truly know the sincere meaning of caring about someone.  Your one of those people that others trust with their lives.  You love to make others happy and thats a great quality to have.  I am so happy you found someone that truly makes you happy.  And i know you make him happy. Well thats obvious.  i cant watch an extreme makeover episode without feeling like i should be at your house.  Sorry i eat all your food, but its just so good.  Hey mel dont let your boy get in the way of any friendships but i know you wont. keep livin hte way you are.

its 3 in the morning and i might pass out.  I will finish all of you dont worry i just want it to be straight from the heart, and right now it may not be.  I will finish sometime this week.  I love you guys!

Sometimes i wonder why me?

how come it seems like everyone has their special one besides me?

What do i do wrong?

Will i ever find the one?